branzann, pohyih: play hard study hard.

the boy was barely half of my height. he held the red bag in his hand, and slung the other onto his small shoulders. the batman bag has covered his whole scrawny back. slowly, he pulled his whole body towards the overhead bridge with his mild body weight, hugging the red back in his hand.

i was on my way home, holding my thick file and biology text book in my hand. the thick and heavy jacket was running all over my left hand as i tried keep it as close and as discipline to me as possible. i was alrdy struggling hard with the books. when days were warm, i had complaint and loathed the fact that school bag has to be so heavy. As i felt my whole back wet with perspiration..

he alighted from the 27 bus. i was sitting and fumbling with my mp3 earpiece. i watched him walk away. then, i said i would lend my helping hand if he were heading for the overbridge and he did. i quickly arranged my NAUGHTY jacket and accelerated towards his direction. Tedious, he advanced the steps one by one.. where i had slowed down to accomodate to his speed. and yes, he was wearing a compassvale pri sch pe shirt, my alma mater. the shirt i was once in.

i rendered my help, but he said nvm.. so for safety sake, i've walked behind him.

i caught him catching short glances at me. as he walked down the stairs, his speed has increased. could it be me dat hve made him felt that i was some big bad person trying to abduct him or is it the fact that it take lesser effort to walk down the stairs.. i tot hard. but looking at the bright side, i've acted as the wolf chasing the sheep home.

so apparently, we were still walkin on the same route... he noticed my presence. and i realli wondered if i had caused alot of discomfort to him, or have i made him felt safer than somebody was behind him if he needed any help. yep, and finally i had to turn left.. he continued to head down straight..

and when i reached my stairs. i searched for him and saw him looking around... seemingly trying to find where i headed. well... mayb i didn't cause so much discomfort towards him as well.. (:
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and it onli two more school days before i head for my study break...
the mixed feelings of fear and relief... plus a wholelots of unwilling.

fear: the fact that we were alrdy on our wae to o lvls. so near yet so far.. and the teachers could no longer render us help or gif us the possible tips that they suddenly had remembered.

relief: that i no longer no nid to worry that i will not be focusing in class. and i'll be doing more efficient studying at home.. and yes. not breaking the record of stayin awake in eng lessons thruout the year..

unwilling; that.. i 'll say bye bye to the bunch of 401 ppl, especially the girls whom i had spent alot of time with recently. it's quite cool to go home in such a big bunch. i've really felt the crowd(; and the pe were definitely fun. we didn't nid to abide to any rules or afraid that some will complain about unfair playing and sorts. it was just let ure stress out. and the spontaneous and unity realli made me proud to be part of it. the future seems so far. and i noe i will be wearing some new uniform and headin to a diff class, with diff types of people...

it is inevitable tat we'll experience this. and the future held so mani uncertainty.. and yet, so mani interesting things for us to reveal.

a pourout of feeling. i wonder how mani of you will be reaching it here. but if you've. welcome(: